The Book Beautiful & Damned – by Robert M. Drake has inspired me. His writing makes me smile from cheek to cheek, reminding me how story telling allows us to get lost, using our own imaginations to create these moments however we interrupt them. I am not the best writer. I don’t write poems like my sister. However, writing gives me a release. It allows me to disconnect from the world and be honest with myself. Going through a transitional period in my life, journaling, reading, and looking up quotes provides a sense of warmth and comfort to my soul. Below isn’t a poem or a story, it is just my words on paper this evening. When you feel lost…take a pen to paper and write down what comes to your mind…trust me it helps.
My Name is Marja.
I have many flaws and imperfections.
I am hard on myself and I don’t take criticism well.
I get insecure, and have unrealistic expectations of beauty from social media.
I need to remind myself pictures are not “real life” and don’t show the depth of a human.
I am a goal setter and make impulse decisions…which can hurt me or have me excel.
I eat too much chocolate when I am sad.
I can drink too much wine when I am happy or healing (vodka as well).
I lift weights to feel empowered and strong.
I run to clear my head and keep me sane.
I do yoga to actually BREATHE and sometimes shed some tears.
I laugh to heal the pain and act like a 10 year old to feel alive.
I think the stupidest shit is funny.
I am immature at heart and will always be a young soul.
I love easily and tend to forgive easily…depending on the circumstance.
It requires too much energy to hate someone…that you only drain yourself.
My energy is light but powerful, and I try my best, to have my heart opened.
I try to see the good in everyone no matter how dark the circumstances may be.
I love animals, especially dogs as they have no judgment and are loyal to the bone.
I believe in Love at first sight and I believe in soul mates…
You could have many in one life.
I believe good things can fall apart, for worse things to happen…
I believe you are the creator of your story and the director of your life.
I don’t believe in luck, I believe in hard work and determination.
I believe mindset is everything…
I believe we all experience pain and loss differently, how we overcome these obstacles is a true testament to the person you are… or growing into.
I believe ENERGY is everything; when you meet someone instantaneously you can see if you are compatible as a friend or lover.
I believe you have to love yourself first, in order to love someone else.
I believe, as cliché as it may sound that everything happens for a reason.
I believe there are no coincides in life, what’s meant to be always finds its way.
I believe the Universe has my back.